From Blush Pudu, 11 Months ago, written in Plain Text.
  11. We are heading off to a marriage seminar this weekend. When I mentioned the possibility of us going to him, he wasn't overly excited, but he did say right off, "It can't hurt, can only help, so register us". Maybe not the completely enthusiastic reaction I would have hoped for, but it was a positive reaction all the same. We're both looking forward to going.
  13. I've also been more honest than I've ever been with him before. Not to say that I've been lying, because I haven't, but I would hesitate to tell him of my feelings and shut him down. It was easier to say nothing was wrong than it was step out there and tell him. It still is easier, don't get me wrong, but I'm working on not doing it.
  15. It's still hard not to feel a little rejected and unimportant over things like him not mentioning the articles I've put together for him that we were supposed to talk about last Friday and we still haven't talked about them. I know he's been busy and I know a good memory isn't something he's been blessed with. I hesitate to bring it up to him because I don't wan to push it if he isn't ready or doesn't want to talk about it, but I don't want to let it go in the event he is willing to talk about it but has just forgotten. I've been thinking of printing them and taking them with us and maybe mentioning it in a very casual, non-threatening way. I don't do casual very well though, especially when it's important to me, but I think that would be a good approach. We've had some very good talks while driving somewhere, so maybe that would be a good time.
  17. He has recently been much stronger and unwilling (physically and emotionally) to let me push him away when I get a little overwhelmed and try to shut down. He hasn't been letting me. The more he does this, the more I want him to and the less I want to close down on him.
  19. J spanked me again last week. This spanking was as good as the first, if not better. He disrobed me completely, put me over his knee, and spanked me more lightly but longer than he has before. He talked to me while he did it, telling me what I was to do to or not do and what he expected. He told me I was his and that he loved me too. The spanking stung, but it wasn't overwhelming pain that I couldn't hear what he was saying. Towards the end I told him "harder", not trying to be submissively dominant, but realizing that he didn't realize he hadn't brought me to *that* point yet, and I wanted to get there. I wanted him to finish it. (When I read Noone's post about bringing a woman to the edge of orgasm and leaving her, I knew exactly what he was talking about it). J obliged me, and hit harder. A couple of those and I started loudly voicing "that's enough!" and "ok, ok!" but J didn't stop till he was ready to stop. It made me think of the 10 extra hard whacks Louise gets at the end of her spankings, and that was exactly what J needed to do. He held me afterwards, and I asked him to rub my tush, and we talked together, and then we prayed together, and then we made love, and it was good love.